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Welcome to My World

February 8, 2010

This is a new site for my artistic endeavors, including writing and photo editing. I plan to post as many fan fiction and original fiction stories as possible. I will also include digital artwork.

Please be advised that some of my fiction includes mature (adult) themes and is not suitable for all readers. These works will be clearly labeled as such.


June 18, 2011

I haven’t posted here for over a year, and a lot has happened in that time period. Some of it has been related to this blog, such as many new fanfiction stories, one or two regular fiction, and, maybe or not, a poem.

More, at least in the past few months, has been layouts which I posted on lunarmothdesigns (also a WordPress blog).

This is just a post to indicate my intention to catch up; I don’t have time to do it all right now.

Angel’s Kiss

April 28, 2010

Written at Timberlawn. It depicts the despair of childhood trauma and the depression it causes, while at the same time it brings forward hope.

Daylight leads to darkness

With all the midnight stars

Surrounding troubled senses

With planets near and far

I stretch my senses outward

Commune with time and space

Floating in the nebula

I’ve lost my earthly place

Then raindrops on my wind-swept hair

Awake the newborn day

I laugh as sunlight turns to gold

Erasing clouds of gray

Soon daylight turns to darkness

And all the midnight stars

I float in space and lose myself

To heal the endless scars

Nighttime has a magic

A soothing comfort song

To mend the fears of childhood

And say “You’re not all wrong!”

Thank you, God, for nature

For trees and flowers of bliss

And even in the darkness

We feel the angel’s kiss.

Web publication

February 23, 2010

Yesterday I was reading the submission guidelines of the online magazine Strange Horizons and found out that any piece that is posted on a public website is considered to be “published.” It would therefore be ineligible for any webzine that requires submissions to be unpublished.

It’s a bit disturbing in terms of this blog — if I post a drabble that turns into a story, can I still submit it to a webzine? Maybe I need to be more careful about what I write! This goes against what I have seen others do; it seems common for writers to make a website featuring their fiction (something like this one). Do they have a hard time getting published? Perhaps I should just post writing exercises here and save the serious stories for offline editing and polishing.

Heinlein Quotes

February 15, 2010

An interesting coincidence (if it is one): Two Heinlein quotes in one day.
The first is from the “Write Prompts” I signed up for.

“In the absence of clearly-defined goals, we become strangely loyal to performing daily trivia until ultimately we become enslaved by it.” ~ Robert A. Heinlein

The second is on Jeanie’s Facebook status for yesterday.

“Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.” ~ Robert Heinlein

I find the first one particularly interesting today, since it definitely applies to me. Routine trivial tasks can be one form of escape — ironic, since they seem very productive and “virtuous”. Anything can be escape, if it turns away from the feelings that must be experienced.
I am avoiding some feeling right now. What is it? I have come up with some likely candidates, but I don’t feel like I’m quite to the center of the matter yet.

Perhaps a bit of writing could expose that which my conscious mind hides.

Weather Digression

February 12, 2010

From the weather blog:

1:18 a.m.: The National Weather Service has issued its official snow total for Thursday, as measured at the Dallas/Fort Worth International Airport reporting station: 11.2 inches. It eclipses the previous 24-hour snowfall record by 3.7 inches.  So far this season, we’ve received a total of 14.4 inches, the third-highest winter total for North Texas since records have been kept. At 1 a.m., all North Texas reporting stations except Grand Prairie and Mesquite were still reporting a light snowfall, with temperatures ranging between 30 and 34 degrees.  WFAA

Snow Day

February 11, 2010

Snow Day 2

Recurring Characters

February 10, 2010

Just read an interesting post at Creative Writing Corner concerning characters that seem to pop up frequently in one’s writing. The author says

Recurring characters are kind of like problems that we haven’t worked out fully yet in our heads.

I can see this very clearly in my own writing over the past 25 years. My needs, thoughts, and wishes are spread out in my stories like body parts on an autopsy table. Rosie was an early character who represented my need for a father figure; Lisa Martin-Rowell (from Kioska) is the same but even more obvious. Julia morphed from needing a mother’s love  to conquering shyness and feelings of inferiority. She even became manipulative and self-serving at one point.

Most of my short-shorts are thinly veiled drabbles about myself.  Or rather, they are about the things I might do if I were slightly different. If I were rich and sophisticated I might actually tear my way through Europe like Lisa (another one!) did in Letting Go of Keira. Thankfully I have not actually jumped off a cliff like the narrator of The Edge (by the way, if you like NCIS fan fiction, I wrote a story called The Edge featuring Abby).

My latest NaNoWriMo attempt represents a departure in characterization for me. There is no character based on me, nor are the characters based on other people (real or fictitious). I made them all up “by my little lonesome.” Of course, I believe I insert a little of myself into every character I write about in depth — even if that’s not my intention.


February 10, 2010

When I write fan fiction my characters are somewhat constrained by necessity — although I can and do take liberties with them now and then. This is called by a variety of different names including AU (alternate universe) and crack!fic. However, as much as possible I attempt to keep the characters within canon; i.e., the characterizations on the actual TV show/movie.

Original fiction is quite different, of course, because the players in my miniature universe-on-paper are completely mine to control. Like a puppet master, I can make them move, talk, and think. They can live and act anywhere I choose. This freedom with characters is a double-edged sword, however. Not only do I need to come up with a reasonable plot and venue for a story, I also  must imagine new people from the inside out.

During my last NaNoWriMo effort, I came across a questionnaire that helps a writer get to know the character. It is very detailed, so it wouldn’t be needed for less important, supporting characters, only the main ones. For the ’09 NaNo I only wrote up one character, Raymond, who is the protagonist and narrator of the story (actually there is a co-narrator later and I will need to complete her questionnaire as well).

I found the process very helpful, especially since I completed it before I started writing. I felt I knew Raymond from the very beginning, although I learned new aspects about his character as he developed. It’s very nice to see your characters grow up and move out on their own…

But I digress. The purpose of this page is not actually rambling, it’s a place for me to write a bit about the most important characters I’ve used, particularly the original ones.

Take a look at the banner on the top of the page. I’ll start on the left with Raymond, the narrator of The Misanthropic, Xenophobic World Savers Travel Club.

Raymond Vine was born on Mars but moved to Australia after he was orphaned. He now lives on the planet Stephanopoulos where he is a forensic profiler.  He’s not the most tactful person and occasionally gets into physical fights, but it’s rare. He is a good leader but prefers to work alone, especially since a lot of his work is based on sitting and thinking.

He’s had girlfriends but never married. Not yet anyway; it remains to be seen whether it will ever happen. He may marry the co-narrator, and they will definitely be involved in a relationship in some later story.

Lisa Mishugimi, far right on the banner, is the co-narrator of The Misanthropic, Xenophobic World Savers Travel Club.

Gibbs, Ducky, and Abby are all characters owned by Donald Bellisario, creator of NCIS.

Julia Marchenko (left next to Raymond) is an original character but she appears in the context of Star Trek: The Next Generation and Star Trek: Deep Space Nine, so the people she interacts with are not my characters. The most important canon characters in the Julia stories are Beverly Crusher and Lt. Barclay.

Rosie Thomas (Zinn) (on the right by Ducky & Abby) is also an original character who is central to two original science fiction stories (I’ve posted part of one of them, Doppelganger). She is also in a Star Trek: The Next Generation fan fic.

I have to admit that Julia and Rosie are both “Mary Sue” characters. You can read about Mary Sues on Wikipedia. However, I don’t agree with everything written there. In particular, I don’t believe that a Mary Sue story is, by definition, a bad story. Depending on the extent of “Mary Sue-ness” of the character and the deftness of the writer, the story can be creative and clever. The problem is that most are not (you can judge for yourself about mine).

Since Rosie is part of my original fiction, she’s never been published (although she helped me win first prize for prose in a college competition). Julia appeared in the ST:TNG fanzine  Hailing Frequencies (back in the day of actual print fanzines)  story called “The Needy,” the title of which refers (of course) to Julia herself.